2009 was the year of my A Levels, one of the most important examinations in my life and i hated it. all the mugging, the stress - i'm just really glad it's all over. and i'd rather not run through in my head all those painful memories. i do have some regrets with regards to the exam but it's not like i can do anything about it anymore. so let's just hope for the best - there's still time to pray hard! (:

2009 was also the year of many hardships for me, other than the academic. the year took out a lot from me both physically and emotionally. i remember the first half of the year where my physical endurance was put to the test and pushed to the limits when me and the other malay dancers worked hard for the syf. i won't lie, it wasn't easy and at some point, i wanted to give up. i remember my tailbone acting up again. it was just tiring and painful. but i'm glad that i pushed myself cos all those hardship was worth it and all those struggles are now part of a good memory. NJ Malay Dance will forever be in my heart! and yes, emotional struggles. don't we all emotionally ache every year? but this year was especially hard for me and it didn't help that i had to juggle so many other things. this year i put everything else over my own heart and yet i let that one incident trample all over it. it was hard and it will take me years to come to get over it. time heals what reason cannot right?

2009 wasn't all that bad though. there were happy moments too. and its all those hardships and pain that makes the few happy moments all the more happier (: 2009 was also the year i truly caught on with the korean wave haha. i mean i have always been interested in korean entertainment but this year, it really took over my life (?) last year if you asked me the latest english songs playing on the radio, i probably could answer but now, uhh i don't think so anymore haha. i really don't know when was the last time i listened to the radio. but hey, music's all the same right. it's just that i had a change of preference in genre (: and this may sound ironic but being crazy about korean entertainers and whatnot was probably what kept me sane this year. it was a good year - i fell so much more in love with Big Bang and 2PM too! YG & JYP family hwaiting! (: and i watched many many good dramas like 'Boys Over Flowers', 'My Fair Lady', 'The Man Who Can't Marry', 'Iris' (which I'm finishing soon!) and many more. and yet i still have so many more i want to watch! haha. 2009 was the year i truly fell in love with the k-wave :D

and 2009 was the year of many lasts too. for instance, the last time i ever have to wear a school uniform, the last time i ever have to sit for NAPFA, the last time i ever have to sit for a nationwide exam (hopefully :/) and and... you get the idea right?

and 2010 instead will be the year of many firsts. like the first time i will actually work (i didn't get a job after my O Levels). and i can't wait what else 2010 has in store for me. but i would like to take it nice and slow, and not let it whizz pass by like how 2009 has. and no new year's resolutions for me cos i shouldn't make promises i can't keep haha. and hopefully 2010 will be a year of more smiles than tears (: