2009 was the year of my A Levels, one of the most important examinations in my life and i hated it. all the mugging, the stress - i'm just really glad it's all over. and i'd rather not run through in my head all those painful memories. i do have some regrets with regards to the exam but it's not like i can do anything about it anymore. so let's just hope for the best - there's still time to pray hard! (:

2009 was also the year of many hardships for me, other than the academic. the year took out a lot from me both physically and emotionally. i remember the first half of the year where my physical endurance was put to the test and pushed to the limits when me and the other malay dancers worked hard for the syf. i won't lie, it wasn't easy and at some point, i wanted to give up. i remember my tailbone acting up again. it was just tiring and painful. but i'm glad that i pushed myself cos all those hardship was worth it and all those struggles are now part of a good memory. NJ Malay Dance will forever be in my heart! and yes, emotional struggles. don't we all emotionally ache every year? but this year was especially hard for me and it didn't help that i had to juggle so many other things. this year i put everything else over my own heart and yet i let that one incident trample all over it. it was hard and it will take me years to come to get over it. time heals what reason cannot right?

2009 wasn't all that bad though. there were happy moments too. and its all those hardships and pain that makes the few happy moments all the more happier (: 2009 was also the year i truly caught on with the korean wave haha. i mean i have always been interested in korean entertainment but this year, it really took over my life (?) last year if you asked me the latest english songs playing on the radio, i probably could answer but now, uhh i don't think so anymore haha. i really don't know when was the last time i listened to the radio. but hey, music's all the same right. it's just that i had a change of preference in genre (: and this may sound ironic but being crazy about korean entertainers and whatnot was probably what kept me sane this year. it was a good year - i fell so much more in love with Big Bang and 2PM too! YG & JYP family hwaiting! (: and i watched many many good dramas like 'Boys Over Flowers', 'My Fair Lady', 'The Man Who Can't Marry', 'Iris' (which I'm finishing soon!) and many more. and yet i still have so many more i want to watch! haha. 2009 was the year i truly fell in love with the k-wave :D

and 2009 was the year of many lasts too. for instance, the last time i ever have to wear a school uniform, the last time i ever have to sit for NAPFA, the last time i ever have to sit for a nationwide exam (hopefully :/) and and... you get the idea right?

and 2010 instead will be the year of many firsts. like the first time i will actually work (i didn't get a job after my O Levels). and i can't wait what else 2010 has in store for me. but i would like to take it nice and slow, and not let it whizz pass by like how 2009 has. and no new year's resolutions for me cos i shouldn't make promises i can't keep haha. and hopefully 2010 will be a year of more smiles than tears (:

And I still haven't gotten a call from my teacher mentor for my teaching internship next year. I need to read through whatever subjects I'll be teaching cos I'm positive I've gotten rusty at them haha. But honestly, I secretly hope I won't get the call cos the thought of the internship kind of makes me nervous. I don't want to end up like one of those teachers who left because they couldn't take it T.T

Ok but there is one thing I'm proud of myself and that is I've finally brought myself to do some exercise on a regular basis, even if it's just 30mins a day. Hopefully it'll pay off (: Cos I think I've been eating too much and yet, barely done much physical movements haha. I don't wanna be a couch potato and grow fat!

Oh and I know that Singapore Idols Grand Finals is going on right now but eh I really couldn't care less. I know people who actually went to the Indoor Stadium to watch it live when I'm not even watching it on TV haha. I really don't get the hype anymore. Seriously, who and who is in the finals again? To whoever and whoever, good luck? Heh

Blergh ok that's all I have for today. I have a boring life right now but I am enjoying it nonetheless. Doing almost nothing is great :DD

Oooh and HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to 2PM's Ok Taecyeon! ^^ Keep smiling and show off those many many teeth of yours haha :D

oh gosh i am so hooked on to Iris right now. just a couple of episodes till the end and i can't wait. can't wait to see how this action-packed and suspense-filled and not forgetting hotness-overload drama will conclude. and there's gonna be a second season! though i doubt it'll be as good partly cos Lee Byung Hyun won't be acting in it ): my only complain about Iris - NOT ENOUGH TABI HOTNESS!! i want more T.O.P!! haha

i'm currently watching performances from tonight's first ever Melon Music Awards and they all look spectacular :DD loving 2NE1 and 2PM's performances~ wish i could have watched them live though. and congrats to the winners though it's soooo unfair that SNSD bagged 6 awards ): their fans must be crazy cos the winners are supposedly chosen solely by online votes. hmm nonetheless, 2NE1 won 2009 New Artist and G-Dragon won 2009 Album with 'Heartbreaker' (despite all the controversies, GD still rocks!) :DD and G-Dragon, 2PM and 2NE1 also won 2009 Top 10 :D CONGRATSSS!

When you walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life.

How you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can barely even look at them.

ok that aside, i'm back from my short trip overseas (: i was in Phuket from Wednesday to Friday afternoon. my family really had no intention of going to Phuket but my mum won some award from Singapore's Woman Weekly magazine and the prize was a 3D2N stay at Twin Palms Resort in Phuket. truth be told, we would not be able to afford to stay just one night in a normal room there which costs about S$500+?! but because of my mum receiving that award, we could very luxuriously stay at a residence suite (: it's like two storeys with a private pool and we even have some sort of a personal butler to attend to our every whims. COOOOL right? and we even had a private complimentary breakfast where the waitress would attend to you all the time. ahh what a life! it's really a once in a lifetime experience which i thoroughly enjoyed UNLESS i get to marry a rich husband then i can stay in the most expensive hotels all over the world HAHA. and most of our time in Phuket was just spent in the hotel room though we did do abit of shopping and rode on the Tuk Tuk haha really interesting! :D

then on Friday, since we couldn't lengthen our stay in Phuket for obvious reasons, we took a flight to KL. stayed at Grand Millenium hotel and not to say that the place was bad cos it was nice and comfy but after staying at a residence suite, nothing can quite compare haha. but yeah did nothing much in KL but shop and slack in the hotel. and we visited some sort of a chocolate factory which made coconut chocolates and even durian chocolates! haha there was really real durian in the chocolates and they're super yummy but i have to avoid them for the time being cos chocolates would just further irritate my sore throat ):

yup so that about sums up my short holiday. though short, it's always nice to get away from Singapore (: but now that i'm back, i feel like i need to do lots of stuff. i need to prepare for my teaching internship. i haven't read any of the documents and whatnot, plus i missed the briefing. reading feels so hard now haha. i feel like my brain hasn't been functioning at its fullest since the end of alevels LOL. plus i want need to do shopping! but i have no money! i need to find a way to earn money fast. boohoos. and most importantly, i need to get well soon! i hate being sick ):

oh and of course, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY LEE JINKI! aka SHINee's leadah, Onew oppa! :DD

oh oh and yesterday was my hubby's birthday! HAPPY BELATED 19th BIRTHDAY LEE SEUNG HYUN! haha hope you'll always the cute maknae of big bang! and you'll always be my strong baby! haha SARANGHAE SEUNGRI OPPA! :DD

but honestly i don't have anything to update on. hmm yeah looking through prom pics on facebook right now. everyone looks pretty (and handsome) haha! looking through the pictures, i realise that i don't remember much of the prom itself other than all the picture-taking haha.

and yup yup i'll be flying off at around 12 or 1 tomorrow. like i said, don't miss me too much (though i know it might be hard haha). and when i get back, i want lots and lots of meet ups people! :DD till then, cyaaaaa!

oh and it's SHINee's Choi Minho's birthday today. HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MINHO!! :D you're just a tad younger than me! and aww isn't he just oh so CUTE! :D saranghae MINHO (:

and ok so yesterday was the long-awaited(?) prom. as always, the build-up to prom was chaotic what with rushing to do makeup and all but i think we (me, joycelyn and lizhu) looked quite pretty in the end right? haha pathetic me, i'm praising myself. and ok the prom itself wasn't too bad actually. i did enjoy myself though it was really tiring for me somehow. and it made me realise that although i won't miss NJC per se but i'll most definitely miss my friends and classmates ): then blablabla, i have no time and am too lazy to describe in detail what happened throughout the night. and i won't be uploading any pictures here, simply cos i have none haha. didn't bring my camera cos i was too lazy, i shall just go facebook and steal from others heh. so people, start uploading prom pics A.S.A.P ok! (:

so prom was enjoyable and quite memorable although everything ended in a whirlwind i felt. but i didn't go to the post-prom party. instead, i went with joycelyn to Starbucks and we just chilled. haha it was a nice and quiet post-prom for me (: but i did have one small regret after prom ended. although i kept pondering about it, i think i'm quite over it now. urgh i ought to be over it. oh wells.

yupyup that's pretty much it. i need to go off now. see ya in four days! :D