Posted on: Friday, March 27, 2009
Posted at: 11:36:00 pm
Posted at: 11:36:00 pm
I AM STILL SUFFERING FROM THE AFTER EFFECTS OF LACK OF SLEEP. but somehow my body refuses to sleep early. and i feel like i've neglected my dear laptop for far too long.
so yeah, lack of sleep. i only had like 3 hours of sleep on monday and 2 hours each on tuesday and wednesday. imagining surviving three days of school plus after school activities on just seven hours. i'm amazed i actually made it! and the cause of it all? stupid three hour history test on thursday which doesn't account for anything but somehow feels like a huge exam or smth. stayed up till so late trying to cram information in my head and really really regretted it. cos even though i somewhat studied so hard for it, i still can't do -.- what a waste of effort. sorry mr han and miss oon in advance for failing! i really did try! ):
and this week was the week with jumbled up time tables. tuesday was running on friday timetable. a fake friday! cos there's still lessons the next day. and i had to wait 3 hours just for dance to start. and we gained a new experience of dancing in the canteen that day! haha. and thursday was a supposed half day - where school starts at 12pm -.- doesn't make much difference when lessons start late on thursday anyway so i didn't miss many lessons. and there was dance practice in the morning. so still had to come early. the school comes up with such weird ways to 'reward' us for good results and whatnot.
today was fun! i don't really know why though. partly because i got more than 2 hours of sleep the night before and a HUGE burden have been lifted off me. haha. and cleaning of cca room was fun! it's so clean now thanks to us girls :D and we rewarded ourselves with camwhoring sessions. had fun doing silly poses with whatever props we could find in the cca room. and the expressions the guys gave us when quyen and travis, and later, thinking walked in and found us camwhoring instead of cleaning was priceless! haha but FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN! :DD and finally gwen knows about tictac though her guessing skills are quite terrible. she must be ecstatic now. haha.
dance tomorrow and buying of makeup and stuff after that. yay! i'm not going mustafa centre again anymore. haha. and gosh syf is so damn near :X
enough said.
i felt every ounce of me screaming out
but the sound was trapped deep within.
Posted on: Sunday, March 22, 2009
Posted at: 5:32:00 pm
Posted at: 5:32:00 pm
i think i ought to update my blog while i have some time on my hands. though i'm supposed to be compiling some lit stuff. hehe. but nvm. just a few random thoughts will do to keep this blog alive and well :D
well enough said. better get back to homework and studying now. urg. i am so dreading school tomorrow!! at least there isn't dance tmr. i need the break :D
so yeah, since the last time i updated, my days have been filled with dance yet again. imagine 15 hours of dance in three days. i have never been so tired before. but i can really feel all of us improving and feeling the dance. so hopefully when syf comes, we'll all do the best we can (: and i don't want to think about post-syf period. it's just so saddening ): but besides training, we finally painted the plates on friday. haha. though it took much longer than expected, it was kinda fun actually what with the mcdelivery, thinking and nghia spraying deodorant at us (i went home smelling like a guy that day!), the random gossips and crapping, and of course the unforgettable sewage maintenance truck that so kindly paid us a visit that day! hahaha.
but right now i am struggling with homework. i've managed to complete most of the more urgent ones but the most pressing one is the history test that i need to study for! i haven't started studying at all. and there's like 60-pages worth of information to remember and mind you, that's only a quarter of what i have to study. but yeah, i've decided to take the test on thursday instead of tuesday cos i really really need more time to study! HELP ME! i am stressing out!!!!!
ok let's stray away from school or dance related stuff now. i received the email below and while i was reading it, i realised that i do have most of the thirteen signs and those that i don't have is well cause it doesn't happen to me yet. gosh what does that mean??? hahaha.
13 SIGNS OF FALLING IN LOVE <3
1. When you're on the phone with him/her late at night and he/she hang up but you miss him/her already when it was just two minutes ago.
2. You read his/her texts over and over again.
3. You walk really slowly when you're with him/her.
4. You feel shy whenever you're with him/her.
5. When you think about him/her, your heart beats faster and faster.
6. You smile when you hear his/her voice.
7. When you look at him/her, you can't see the other people around you. All you see is him/her.
8. You start listening to slow songs, while thinking of him/her.
9. He/she become ALL you think about.
10. You get high just from his/her scent.
11. You realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about him/her.
12. You would do anything for him/her.
13. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time.
Posted on: Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Posted at: 10:26:00 pm
Posted at: 10:26:00 pm
i think it's due time for another update. i've got lots to update on but it's mainly about dance and it's gonna be pretty narrative cos yeah i wanna be able to rmb these past few days when i read this post in the future. so if you're getting bored of reading about dance, dance and more dance then you can just skip this entire post (except for maybe the end). haha.
so saturday was the start of the march holidays (which really doesn't feel like a holiday at all!) and there was dance practice as usual. we tried dancing with our costumes and cikgu asked all the girls to dance with our hair down. i swear we all looked as if we escaped from the mental hospital or something with bulky costumes and messy hair. haha. and i could barely see anything with hair all over my face! whatever happened after that is a blur cos i really can't rmb anything.
then on sunday, we had day one of our malay dance camp in school. i met the rest of my food and logistics comm earlier to shop for food for supper, breakfast and snacks. i think we were all too high. ly and her bananas, me and my search for planta! damn hilarious luh. haha. and after everyone arrived, we settled down and played some bonding games - some music game. we had to like guess titles of songs and sing parts of the song and all. at first, my group was like "aiyah we sure die lah" but to much surprise, thanks to syairah's and my music knowledge and quyen's superb performance, we actually won. hahaha. we owns man! (: and after that, we had dinner and by then we realised that we had no water supply! the thought of not being able to bathe later was horrifying and unimaginable! there was even no water to flush! ok but luckily after contacting the om and all, we managed to get the water supply on (: then blablabla, we had nightwalk at night (like DUH). it was pretty scary and eerie, and i think the fact that we were the only people in school contributed alot to the atmosphere. it was nice to have the whole school to ourselves. and i hate the exco for scaring the shit out of all of us! haha. some stations were seriously damn scary like the rooftop and art block one. and i rmb me and aqilah kicking the buckets like damn hard at tk to check if it was really a person. at first i felt kinda sorry for doing that but i think he deserved it for scaring the shit out of us and even scaring others till they fell off the stairs. haha. and loved my group for nighthike - i think it was a great balance between the four super scaredy-cats girls and the two calm and 'macho' guys. we even had a formation when walking! haha. but the best part of day one was definitely the part when we all got to bathe! haha didn't know bathing could be so blissful :D
day two of camp started with me, gwen and ly waking up much earlier (and getting to miss pt!) to go out and buy breakfast from bt timah food centre. we bought beancurd, grass jelly and fried bee hoon for the group on top of the bread and milo that we already bought. i think breakfast was a success. i feel so proud of us! (: the rest of the day was spent video-watching for a while and mostly training. it was really tiring and stressful but i think we really needed the stress so that we'll be more focused. and i didn't know i could stink and sweat so much in one day. seriously, my whole shirt was drenched in sweat. i was really disgusted at myself. so when i reached home in the afternoon, the first thing i did was of course, take a long long shower XD and i accidentally fell asleep at around eight while watching tv, without eating dinner or unpacking my bag. i was damn tired luh.
and yesterday was sort of day three of dance camp and the whole day was spent dancing from morning to like 4.30pm, with a break in between for lunch and video watching. again another tiring day but i think we were much more focused and there were significant improvements (: and after dance, me, lizhu and gwen decided to have a bubble tea outing in school but unfortunately, the stall was closed. so we ended up having a vending machine outing. haha. it brought back memories of ice cream outing at the end of last year! and yeah, we tried to cheat the vending machine but failed ): even with pp and tk's help, we still failed. so sad. after getting our drinks, the five of us had a super weird conversation and then we decided to leave before it got weirder. haha.
and today is one of the two days that i have no dance this holidays. and it was spent with my dearest friends. had a small picnic at lower seletar reservoir park with nina, shirin and huda. we just ate and played silly games. it was fun to just chill with my girls. i really really needed it. can't wait for our next outing. then went home and slept the rest of the afternoon away cos of my painful cramps ): but i managed to do abit of hmwk today! yay! i feel so accomplished (:
dance again tmr and meeting fiqah and zimah after that for late lunch. can't wait to see them too! it's been ages since i last saw them! and i hope we will accomplish more during training tmr. syf is really around the corner!
enough said.
PS. maybe sub-consciously, i really did mean something more with the words "the reason is YOU".
the perfect words never crossed my mind
cos there was nothing in there but you
Posted on: Friday, March 13, 2009
Posted at: 11:03:00 pm
Posted at: 11:03:00 pm
HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13TH! it's like the second consecutive friday the thirteenth this year. wonder if it's some bad omen or smth? o.O
oh and syf schedule is out. jc team will be performing on 8 April 2009 at 1 plus in the afternoon. and results will be out 2 hours after that. gosh less than one month left! >.<
the week passed by really really fast. and it's already the end of term one. gosh alevels is nearing at such a fast pace. it really freaks me out.
but anyway, highlights of the week: my tailbone is healed! not totally healed cos it still hurts from time to time but at least the pain is minimised now. i think the worst was on tuesday, i could barely walk that day and yeah had to sit out of pe and dance that day. and cikgu was threatening me that i couldn't dance for syf and all and the thought of it is really saddening and i started to think to myself if this is some permanent injury and i can't dance anymore, i really would kill myself. imagine losing something that has been your passion for almost your entire life ):
and yeah another dance related news: we finally got our syf costumes yesterday. and surprise surprise, it's (to be brutally frank) horrible. the colour combi is like green and orange - soon njc malay dance will be synonymous with green and orange costumes. haha. and it so doesn't suit the mood of the dance and urgh it's just way below expectations. how come i rarely have good luck when it comes to costumes? and why am i so unlucky to be the only one that has a missing piece? ):
tomorrow marks the start of the march holidays which doesn't feel like the holidays at all. i have dance every other day and i hardly have the time to study for the many many tests that i have in term 2 ): I FEEL SO STRESSED!!!!!!!
(warning: emo-ish content ahead!)
and i don't want to be in this cycle where you show me signs that make me get my hopes up and then you crush them all over again. if you're using me, please don't. i really can't take it anymore. i know now that what we had is not worth fighting for anymore. so please stop these foolish games. cos i'm finally over you.
yeah enough said (:
how many times can i break till i shatter?
Posted on: Friday, March 06, 2009
Posted at: 9:38:00 pm
Posted at: 9:38:00 pm
time for updates.
this is the first time this week that i can actually go online. mostly cos the stupid lightning attacked my internet and my wireless modem is now spoilt. so now my whole family is surviving on an old and slower internet modem which means that i can't access the internet on my laptop since there's no wireless. sucks right. and i always can't use the main computer to use the internet cos my mum/dad/sis has more 'important' stuff to do. i feel so deprived ):
but in other news, malay dance has officially taken over my life. this week we had training on sunday, monday, tuesday (three days consecutively!) and on thursday morning AND afternoon and there's training tomorrow too. i'm not complaining but i'm really really tired. by the time i reach home and attempt to do my homework, i'll end up falling asleep. and i know my mum isn't too pleased about this either. but i can't help it ): and to make matters worse, i re-injured my tailbone. cos on tuesday, we were doing a step which involved twirling down in one count so i think i like slipped on my pants or smth and fell butt down. it's not funny k. i think the impact was quite hard cos right now my tailbone hurts like shit. but i'm praying that it will get better asap. and i REFUSE to see the doctor. but thanks to everyone who is concerned about my 'tail', i really appreciate it. i feel so loved :D haha
and i've been trying to figure out smth. like how the hell can he know if he does know. and if he doesn't know then what does that mean. shit maybe i'm just being too hopeful. i know i have this tendency to over analyse things and make it mean smth that will make me feel good when the chances of it are pretty slim. and this is why i get heartbreaks ): damn it. but nvm lissya this may all just be some silly teenage infatuation that will eventually fade away.
and i can't believe it's already march. one month nearer to syf. one month nearer to alevels. speaking of alevels, results are out today. and yeah lizhu told me that alot of our seniors did pretty well. so proud of them all (: wonder if i can do half as good when my turn comes. gosh it's damn scary >.<
enough said. till next time.
this is the first time this week that i can actually go online. mostly cos the stupid lightning attacked my internet and my wireless modem is now spoilt. so now my whole family is surviving on an old and slower internet modem which means that i can't access the internet on my laptop since there's no wireless. sucks right. and i always can't use the main computer to use the internet cos my mum/dad/sis has more 'important' stuff to do. i feel so deprived ):
but in other news, malay dance has officially taken over my life. this week we had training on sunday, monday, tuesday (three days consecutively!) and on thursday morning AND afternoon and there's training tomorrow too. i'm not complaining but i'm really really tired. by the time i reach home and attempt to do my homework, i'll end up falling asleep. and i know my mum isn't too pleased about this either. but i can't help it ): and to make matters worse, i re-injured my tailbone. cos on tuesday, we were doing a step which involved twirling down in one count so i think i like slipped on my pants or smth and fell butt down. it's not funny k. i think the impact was quite hard cos right now my tailbone hurts like shit. but i'm praying that it will get better asap. and i REFUSE to see the doctor. but thanks to everyone who is concerned about my 'tail', i really appreciate it. i feel so loved :D haha
and i've been trying to figure out smth. like how the hell can he know if he does know. and if he doesn't know then what does that mean. shit maybe i'm just being too hopeful. i know i have this tendency to over analyse things and make it mean smth that will make me feel good when the chances of it are pretty slim. and this is why i get heartbreaks ): damn it. but nvm lissya this may all just be some silly teenage infatuation that will eventually fade away.
and i can't believe it's already march. one month nearer to syf. one month nearer to alevels. speaking of alevels, results are out today. and yeah lizhu told me that alot of our seniors did pretty well. so proud of them all (: wonder if i can do half as good when my turn comes. gosh it's damn scary >.<
enough said. till next time.
i love you too much it shows
all my emotions go out of control