nurLISSYA bte suwandi
finally nineteen
18may1991
slps, bpghs, njc, nus

i am very into korean stuff, be it music, dramas or movies. i'm a full-time VIP and HOTTEST! Big Bang, 2PM and SHINee are absolute loves! i'm also into FT Island, 2NE1, 2AM, CNBLUE, Beast, MBLAQ, SS501, Kara, T-ara, Rain & many more (:

i’m made of sugar, spice and everything nice (: i’m a malay dancer who can’t live without music. no genre, just music. i love to shop till i drop and then i’ll shop some more. i love anything chocolate. i’m a believer of true love and am a hopeless romantic. i can be a bit insane at times but then again, i’m just me :D.

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last day of January today. omg. one month closer to 'O' Levels. die. and i have yet to drop my Physics. i've made up my mind. but convincing my mum isin't a simple task. wish me luck.

had competition training today. did 2 nursing case study and one first aid case. ok lah. but we were like spending our time gossiping about B.O and Sial. haha. very funny lah. and the more i think about it, i don't know how i'm ever gonna leave sec sch with friends like these, especially the sec4 sjab squad. we're one BIG family. must have many2 gatherings. (:

went home around 5pm. me and nina wanted to take 187 and were too engrossed in our conversation that we boarded the wrong bus. haha. boarded 67 instead. nina even asked the bus driver whether we're in 187 or not. damn embarassing and of course, we got worried. wasted so much time and energy. but yah, we did learn our lesson. >.<

there's Amath and Lit homework today. so the lazy to do. then, got bio test also tmr. haish. very tired lah. just wanna lie down and SLEEP. *yawns* oh yah, found out that 'O' Level results will be released next Wed, if i remember correctly. hope i get an A1 for malay!

enough said. ciao.

i have superfantastic news!! i passed the SSGT promotion test!! and not only that, but all 7 of us who went for the test passed! yay! hehe. Mdm Yati said that we'll be promoted after February. can't wait! (:

then, for malay dance today, we kinda slacked 'cause we forgot that our dear instructor is in Malaysia for some exchange programme. hehe. went home early of course. met my friend at woodlands interchange. went home together. poured my heart out. thanks for listening! owe u one. heh.

havent got much homework today. so, taking the free time to relax for awhile. so tired.

enough said. ciao.


you'll go far in this world,
if you know how to touch a girl. - SO TRUE! (:

so tired today. had PE. did like 70 sit-ups and push-ups altogether. wah. can die. my muscles all aching. but today was rather relaxing other than CME which i officialy hate now. it's supposed to be a light hearted subject lah. something fun and not so hard on the brain. but our new CME teacher is really..ergh. i can't begin to start how much i hate her. haha.

failed my Physics diagnostic test. surprise, surprise. 10/30. hehe. could have done worse though. Mr Hisham was like "see me after school" and in my heart, i was so happy that finally, i could bring up the matter of me dropping the subject. seriously want to drop it. the sooner, the better. then, i can concentrate on other subjects.

had competition training after school today. from 3pm to 5pm. dragged till half an hour later - as usual. did one footdrill sequence. can still improve. did one nursing case study. super slack. but at least, we could recall what to do. need alot of practice. and did one first aid case study. AA acted it out. i got heart attack and JJ was like super scary when he was going through the fake attack. haha. i just ignored him and attended to the passer-by. didnt know what to do. not like i could prevent the attack. so, just waited for him to go unconscious and then, did CPR. hehe. after that, was AA's turn to do long case. my watch got scratched because of stupid recovery position. oh wells, i'll just get a new one soon. hehe. i want the swatch ($139) or nike ($199). hmm. need money leh.

at home now. and i'm feeling very tired. don't feel like going to school tmr or any other day for that matter. haish.

enough said. ciao.


Just know that I am by your side
There aint no ifs, buts, or maybes,
I'm gonna stay down and ride for you baby

tired. so very tired. i'm worn out both mentally and physically. tired from all the dance practices and St John trainings. tired from trying to understand everything being taught but with much difficulties. i'm tired emotionally too. i'm tired of getting my heart toyed with. tired of having to cry my heart out every night just to let go of the pain. i'm worried. it's only the first month of the year and i'm already so exhausted. and yet i know that there's a silver lining in every cloud; that if i work hard enough, i'll make it. PERSEVERE. i know i have to. but would someone please tell me how? 'cause i really can't take it anymore. a friend told me that if i keep on pretending and lying to myself and everyone else that i'm ok, there'll be a point when i can't hide everything anymore and i'll just crack - and by then, it'll be harder to pick up the pieces...

i'm gonna make it...right?

3 words today:

PISSED and HURT.

it has been raining non-stop since yesterday. i think i'm gonna freeze to death. so damn cold lah. anyway, today was Physics and Biology diagnostic tests. deliberately screwed up my physics. hoping i'll fail so that i can drop it easily. as for Bio, the paper was stupid lah. the questions were kinda wierd. hope i didnt screw up too badly.

went home with Roza and Nina. even with an umbrella, we still got wet. how convenient. i was practically shivering in the bus lah. after got home, changed into DRY and WARM clothes, and went out again. met my dear friend. he was in a total mess lah. pity him. did i mention that i detest people who go around breaking hearts especially if those hurt i people i care about?! wth. >.<

hmm. got tons of homework to do. plus, there's Lit and History diagnostic tests to study for. hope i can do it all over the weekend.

ooh. i want iPhone. my friend told me to check it out. and it's uber cool. it's all touch screen. it just released in US few days back. want to save up lots of money to buy one when it arrives Singapore. and i bet it'll cost a bomb. need $$.

currently, i'm so totally in love with this song: Walk Away (Remember Me) - Paula Deanda. sometimes, i feel like i can relate to this song cause there were moments when i wished that me and that certain someone could stick it through together longer. oh wells. i have didi now and i love him loads. (: though if (touch wood) things were to go terribly wrong with didi and me, and fate was evil, this song may just be my heartbreak anthem. ok, should erase this thought away..

enough said. ciao.



i'm gonna remember you, you're gonna remember me...

school was rather interesting today 'cause we had a VVIP visitor coming to our school - the Education minister of Saudi Arabia. so, went to sch in my SJAB quarter-u. at 8.55am, had early recess and changed into Full-u. just when we finished sizing up, Mr Sim was like telling us to hurry and form up. we realised we were too late and had to stop running abruptly just to salute at the first three cars. they even stopped to wait for the rest to form up. damn embarrasing! luckily, the last van was better greeted by. after all the welcoming ceremony, went back to class. then, had recess yet again. heh. after recess was physics lesson where the minister was to sit in. Mr Hisham was so panicky. haha. very cartoon. and just to find out that they could only stay for like 10mins? oh yah, they like arrived at the lower sec campus from upper sec campus in their cars. so like royalty. heh.

school ended at 2.10pm. then, went Lot 1 with Fiqah, Nadirah, Azimah, and Athirah. searched for Roza's birthday present for tmr. searched for all things pink. heh. bought something super cute for her. hope she likes it. if she doesn't, well, that's just too bad. heh.

tomorrow is HML and Amath diagnostic tests. haven't studied anything yet. hope to do it later. and pray hard that i'll pass Amath - for once. >.<

well, enough said. ciao.


I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

i feel so tired today. havent been getting much rest lately. still in the process of adapting to the hectic life of school again. diagnostic tests are next week and i havent started studying anything yet. just too worn out.

had my tuition today instead of tomorrow since i have to attend something tmr. then, had to rush for my piano lessons. tiring ok. after that, went to vivo with him. i've been to vivo many2 times but just not with him. had fun. managed to take my mind off some things for awhile. our 6th month together today. and he was just so sweet. love him loads. <3

need to get back to sending hanif the videos and photos. ciao.



time and distance will not stop me from loving you...

first day of school today. been quite a long time since i woke up so early. went to class and there was hardly anyone there. then, had morning assembly. the national anthem went haywire. hilarious. the principal and DM talked. people got caught for attire. normal stuff. then, had two hours of form class. did admin stuff blabla. i like our seating arrangement. very cool. heh. after that was Physics. Mr Hisham is our new teacher. ok lah. not too bad. then, recess. then, had HML. had to walk all the way to the other campus. tiring ok. but at least can waste time lah. heh. Cikgu just talk and talk and talk non-stop. o.O then, emath. then, supposed to have break and YMP but was cancelled. so, had homework period instead. slacked. released 50mins earlier at 2.10pm. (:

after school, put up the banners and posters to promote St John. my uniform got super dirty on the first day. after putting up two banners at the Upper Sec campus, with MUCH difficulty, we were told that we can only put banners and posters at the Lower Sec Campus. urg. so frustrating. and there were only like four of us actually doing everything. whatever happened to the rest is beyond me. at about 3.45pm, went home.

this year will be a busy year for me. i know that we are way behind in many subjects. to make matters worse, prelims are in August and O Levels will be about two weeks earlier. great. just great. need to buck up and work harder this year. wish me luck. (:

enough said. ciao.


please tell me that you were lying.
for once, just tell me that you lied to me.
please.