Posted on: Friday, October 02, 2009
Posted at: 9:46:00 pm
first, i would like to thank all those who gave me encouragements with regards to my previous. they really mean a lot to me (: though i feel abit selfish cos i know that i'm not the only one who feels that way. but i just needed to vent it all out, i've been keeping it all within me and i just gad to let it out. i can't say i feel fine, i don't think i'll ever be (at least till after this ordeal is over) but i've decided to let bygones be bygones and move forward. i shall work my hardest and hopefully, it'll be more than enough. i must be optimistic and believe in myself right? A-GO-GO-GO LISSYA! :D and A-GO-GO-GO to everyone out there stressed out by exams and whatnot too! we can do it! :D

but i'm pissed off with something. the other day, i found out smth on fb. it hurts cos you didn't tell me yourself and i had to find out through some website. it really hurts. and all these while, i was deluding myself, thinking that you're busy and that's we've been out of touch lately. and all these while, i had my hopes up, thinking that we could at least be friends again. but i was so wrong. i don't know if you were using me but it sure feels that way. it's like you only need me when you're lonely. sometimes i wish i'm wrong and that it's all just in my head. cos deep down i still want to believe that you are the same friend i've had all those years back. i want to believe that you wouldn't hurt me this way. urgh EVERY TIME i get my hopes up, they just get crushed over and over again. i know i should move on. i know it's just pointless to be waiting for you anymore. i know i deserve someone much better than you. yet still why must every guy compare to you, the one who broke my heart?
ok and currently i'm really in love with this song - In The Club by 2NE1. it's really nice and right now i can relate to the lyrics - or at least i should.
In The Club by 2NE1

[Minzy]
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh

[CL]
I'm trying to erase your scent now
I'm trying to forget your touch now
Why did you have to be like that
I can't believe it, in the end you were that sort of guy

[Minzy]
I'm trying to find my life now
I'm trying to meet my friends now
You obviously lied, and again, like a fool
I doubted that it was true

[Dara]
Can you please take away all the promises you made?
Even the petty habits, even the small memories
I'll burning them all away
I'm putting you, who lives in me, to sleep
The image of me you knew up till now won't exist anymore

[Bom]
In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I'll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I'll love easily

In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I'll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I'd be able to forget you

[Minzy]
See your figure dancing inside the dazzling light
You place your hand on the hip of first girl you see
In the loud club, I shout out louder for you
You seem like you don't even hear a thing

[CL]
Tonight, I'll also forget you for a while
I'll erase all the pictures of you and me on my desk
It's tiring, I want to escape from you but
Why do I keep remembering you? I'm not okay

[Dara]
Can you please take away all the promises you made?
Even the petty habits, even the small memories
I'll burning them all away
I'm putting you, who lives in me, to sleep
The image of me you knew up till now won't exist anymore

[Bom]
In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I'll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I'll love easily

In the club tonight, for him
In the club, I'll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I'd be able to forget you

[Minzy]
When this night completely ends
Seems like I'll be left alone in my room
Seems like I'll be crying like a fool

[Bom]
I still see you in my dreams
Now I'll let you go
You shouldn't look for me again either

[Bom]
In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I'll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I'll love easily

In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I'll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I'd be able to forget you
In the club
In the club
In the club