Posted on: Friday, May 01, 2009
Posted at: 11:46:00 am
Posted at: 11:46:00 am
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ok i've been wanting to update but this past week has been hectic as hell. schoolwork has been piling like craaaazyyyy! i actually feel busier after syf or maybe i've always had this much work but used syf as an excuse to put them off. but anyway, finally got back the second half of my history test. and just like the first half, it was quite badly done. overall, i got an E. gosh at this rate i really have to mug 24/7 ): and the next two weeks are filled with tests - GP tests next week and Lit tests next week (notice that they are all plural!). AH STRESS!
and dance resumed yesterday. i always thought i would look forward to restarting dance again. but truth be told, i kind of dreaded it. of course, i look forward to seeing all my fellow dancers again and spend time with them but maybe that's all i want. i don't quite look forward to the long and tiring practices, knowing that i still have so much to catch up on academically. and gosh, i feel so unfit and inflexible! during warm up yesterday, my bones kept cracking and my legs kept wobbling. and after like just half a dance, i felt so tired already and almost out of breath. and i really couldn't balance AT ALL! i kept shaking and wobbling! ): who would have thought that all those months and months of endless trainings would go to waste after just three weeks of no dance. haha. gosh we are all so rusty. hope we can dance well enough tomorrow. yeah that reminds me!
ok back to talking about dance training yesterday. let me see. oh yes, we lost a member yesterday and it's really saddening. nghia left us yesterday and though i don't know him well enough, it's always sad to lose a member of your family right? in our own ways, each and every one of us make NJC Malay Dance what it is. but life goes on so i hope you find happiness in soccer and in your life. but remember that once a malay dancer, always a malay dancer. you are definitely more than welcome to drop by during trainings even if it's just to watch us. WE WILL MISS YOU! and i do realise that nghia leaving us is just the beginning of more farewells to come ):
on another note, i realise that there's nothing stopping me now. no more excuses to hide my feelings. and honestly, it wasn't that i didn't feel anything and the reason why i didn't cry was cos i was kind of trying to block your words. cos maybe if i don't hear them, they're not true and i won't have to accept the truth. but i know it's just a failed attempt and reality hits hard. and now, you're not there. it's the perfect opportunity. but fear and cowardice gets the best of me all the time.
enough said. HAPPY LABOUR DAY! :DD
ok i've been wanting to update but this past week has been hectic as hell. schoolwork has been piling like craaaazyyyy! i actually feel busier after syf or maybe i've always had this much work but used syf as an excuse to put them off. but anyway, finally got back the second half of my history test. and just like the first half, it was quite badly done. overall, i got an E. gosh at this rate i really have to mug 24/7 ): and the next two weeks are filled with tests - GP tests next week and Lit tests next week (notice that they are all plural!). AH STRESS!
and dance resumed yesterday. i always thought i would look forward to restarting dance again. but truth be told, i kind of dreaded it. of course, i look forward to seeing all my fellow dancers again and spend time with them but maybe that's all i want. i don't quite look forward to the long and tiring practices, knowing that i still have so much to catch up on academically. and gosh, i feel so unfit and inflexible! during warm up yesterday, my bones kept cracking and my legs kept wobbling. and after like just half a dance, i felt so tired already and almost out of breath. and i really couldn't balance AT ALL! i kept shaking and wobbling! ): who would have thought that all those months and months of endless trainings would go to waste after just three weeks of no dance. haha. gosh we are all so rusty. hope we can dance well enough tomorrow. yeah that reminds me!
ANYONE WANTS TO COME DOWN AND SUPPORT ME and the other dancers too of course HAHA? we'll be performing at the Malay Heritage Centre in conjunction with the Malay Arts Festival '09. the IP team performance will be at 11.50am? and the JC team (there's ME!) will be performing at 12.05pm. we'll be performing our gold and gold-with-honours syf items respectively. so do come down and support yeah? your support will be greatly appreciated. btw, ADMISSION IS FREE! :D here's the link to the event if you wanna check out what it's all about: http://www.malayheritage.org.sg/event_details.php?nid=28
ok back to talking about dance training yesterday. let me see. oh yes, we lost a member yesterday and it's really saddening. nghia left us yesterday and though i don't know him well enough, it's always sad to lose a member of your family right? in our own ways, each and every one of us make NJC Malay Dance what it is. but life goes on so i hope you find happiness in soccer and in your life. but remember that once a malay dancer, always a malay dancer. you are definitely more than welcome to drop by during trainings even if it's just to watch us. WE WILL MISS YOU! and i do realise that nghia leaving us is just the beginning of more farewells to come ):
on another note, i realise that there's nothing stopping me now. no more excuses to hide my feelings. and honestly, it wasn't that i didn't feel anything and the reason why i didn't cry was cos i was kind of trying to block your words. cos maybe if i don't hear them, they're not true and i won't have to accept the truth. but i know it's just a failed attempt and reality hits hard. and now, you're not there. it's the perfect opportunity. but fear and cowardice gets the best of me all the time.
enough said. HAPPY LABOUR DAY! :DD