and not that i'm a big fan of the current season of american idol, but i am kinda upset that my dear danny got eliminated ): i expected him and adam to be in the finals actually. oh wells. i'll miss his sexy husky voice though. haha.

urgh i need to find a motivation, an inspiration, a purpose to go through this tiring and difficult time. cos i always feel like giving up, losing hope on everything i do or at least try to do. i need something to look forward to when i wake up in the morning. something to know that life is worth living for. cos right now i feel so empty. there's this huge void in me that needs to be filled. i need something to push me on. to push me forward. to help me be the best that i can be. life seems so meaningless and monotonous right now ):

oh gosh my heart just skipped a beat - again - and literally skipped a beat ok, not metaphorically. i don't know why but it has been skipping beats the past three days. and it feels so uncomfortable. urgh.

college day tomorrow. and whoopie-doo i have to attend the damn thing as an audience. and its really unbelievable how much the school spends on for just college day, and on useless stuff at that. 

whiny whiny. why am i so whiny today? i'm just not in the best of moods i guess.

enough said.