the week passed by really really fast. and it's already the end of term one. gosh alevels is nearing at such a fast pace. it really freaks me out. 

but anyway, highlights of the week: my tailbone is healed! not totally healed cos it still hurts from time to time but at least the pain is minimised now. i think the worst was on tuesday, i could barely walk that day and yeah had to sit out of pe and dance that day. and cikgu was threatening me that i couldn't dance for syf and all and the thought of it is really saddening and i started to think to myself if this is some permanent injury and i can't dance anymore, i really would kill myself. imagine losing something that has been your passion for almost your entire life ): 

and yeah another dance related news: we finally got our syf costumes yesterday. and surprise surprise, it's (to be brutally frank) horrible. the colour combi is like green and orange - soon njc malay dance will be synonymous with green and orange costumes. haha. and it so doesn't suit the mood of the dance and urgh it's just way below expectations. how come i rarely have good luck when it comes to costumes? and why am i so unlucky to be the only one that has a missing piece? ):

tomorrow marks the start of the march holidays which doesn't feel like the holidays at all. i have dance every other day and i hardly have the time to study for the many many tests that i have in term 2 ): I FEEL SO STRESSED!!!!!!!

(warning: emo-ish content ahead!)

and i don't want to be in this cycle where you show me signs that make me get my hopes up and then you crush them all over again. if you're using me, please don't. i really can't take it anymore. i know now that what we had is not worth fighting for anymore. so please stop these foolish games. cos i'm finally over you.

yeah enough said (: