Posted on: Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Posted at: 12:34:00 pm
meet up with my darlings, arifah and azimah, yesterday was fun! i haven't met them in ages and i missed them so much!!! there was so much to catch up on and it really made me miss the bp days all over again ): oh and speaking of bp, i can't wait to go for the march back this friday! the new building looks niceeee! i am so jealous lahhh. haha. can't wait to see my old schoolmates and the teachers and the new building!!!! :DDD

ok, now on to another topic. today is the last day of 2008 and it's so unbelievable. i mean the year really came and went without me noticing it. and just when i was getting used to the hectic life of jc, it will all come to an end pretty soon. and don't get me wrong, i really want to get out of njc and get alevels over and done with. but the thought of moving on to another stage of my life scares the shit out of me. the future is so unpredictable and scary. 

well i promised my new year's resolutions righttt? honestly, it's hard to stick to them and in a few months time, i think i'll totally forget about it. haha. but i think it's good to just plan out what you want to achieve in the next year and just keep yourself in check. right. so here's my new year's resolutions for 2009:
  1. first and foremost is definitely to mug my ass off for alevels. haha. in just a matter of months, i'll be sitting for yet another big exam and it is so terrifying. alevels is a million more times scarier than olevels. and i think in order to do half as well as i did in the olevels, i have to work doubly hard. gosh. i just hope i'll do pretty well for alevels. i don't really expect myself to do extremely well. i just want satisfactory results :)
  2. i think this is quite standard in most girls' resolutions. haha. yup, you guessed it. i want to lose weight mostly cuz i've really gained quite alot over the past years. i'm the sort of person that eats alot when stressed out and lately, i am definitely stressed out. heh. but i'm proud to say that i've sort of started on my mission to achieve this by exercising almost everyday. i say almost everyday cos i give myself the weekends off. haha. hopefully, it will pay off soon. and i also hope that the intensive dance practices next year will help me shed some weight too! hehe.
  3. speaking of dance, next on the list is to get my first ever gold or better still, gold with honours, for syf! :) although i know that this isn't an individual effort, it's still important for everyone to work hard and put in their all right?? so i want to put my heart and soul to get that gold or gold with honours. and even though contemporary dance isn't my style or something i'm familiar with (this is my first time in my ten years of malay dance that i've actually danced contemporary!), i'll try my best and i won't give up no matter how hard it gets :D
  4. right. this one is hard. number four on the list is for me to gather up enough courage to talk to him. a certain him who has no idea how important he is to me. and after all these years, i just want us to be friends at least. at least for now.
  5. ok don't laugh at this but i want to find a boyfriend! that was one of the goals that i had after olevels ended and till now, i haven't found a suitable guy yet. it's just so depressing. maybe i should hold auditions or something. haha. but don't get me wrong. i'm not desperate or hungry for love or anything. i want to love and be loved but when it comes to opening up my heart to others, i am very cautious. and to find a guy who i can open my heart to, well, it just doesn't come along very often. being single is nice and all but i want a guy to care for me and who i can rely on to make me feel better. being single for more than a year makes you feel a tinge of jealousy whenever you see couples in the streets holding hands and whatnot. what can i say, i'm a hopeless romantic. haha.
  6. and last but not least, is to be optimistic and face whatever challenges in the year to come with a whole lot of strength and a little faith. i want to make the best out of the year no matter how hard it will be. i want to enjoy every minute of it with all my loved ones. spend more time with my family and friends is important. cuz i have to face the fact that i am running out of time. we all are.
yup that about sums up my new year's resolution. i hope i will be able to stick to all of them. they're not that unrealistic right??? haha.

so i wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR and may 2009 holds great moments for us to uncover. enjoy every moment like it's your last cuz once an hour goes by, a week, a month, a year, you'll never get them back. and so, i leave all of you with this quote by cecilia ahern in the book, 'the gift':

"TIME CAN'T BE GIVEN. BUT IT CAN BE SHARED."