other than sort of worrying about cts, i've been on a desperate and frantic search for CK. silly i know. but i just can't fucking get his face out of my head. and i don't even know why. it's been over a week already and the feeling should die down already. but nooo, it's only getting stronger. everywhere i go, anyone i see who looks in the slightest way like CK makes my heart beat a little faster. shittes! i only know him for like what 6 hours and i don't have a clue what his bloody name is. but every time my mind drifts away, it's him i picture in my head and what he said to me and all the could-have-beens. and everytime that happens, i have this butterfly in the stomach feeling. and and argh, it's stupid. so so stupid. if only he had not spoken to me at all, maybe i wouldn't be so full of regrets right now. or maybe if i had acted on my gut feeling that day. *sighs very loudly* so now, all i can do is wait and hopefully, i really do hope, i will get to see him again. just once. please.

well, off i go to contemplate if i should start studying history or not. haha. i'll try to have some important stuff to blog about the next time aites? toodles :D