well, yesterday was my cousin's nikah. went to the bride's house at jurong. and the tok kadi was late! haha. and when he finally reached, he could still joke around and all. kecoh betul. haha. the rest of us on the other hand were suffering from the leg cramps and feeling hot and stuffy. oh and i saw one of the nj malay teachers there. haha. it's a small world after all (: wonder how we're related or there's no relation at all? after that, went back to help making the berkat and all until like 10pm. actually it's not that late but considering how unfit i am these days, i was dead beat after that >.<

today was the sanding. and boy, was i tired. had to walk around the whole day to give out the berkat. i swore my feet never hurt so much. imagine abt 6h walking around non-stop. but interesting things happened (: firstly, saw this guy (i think he's younger than me) who really resembles aliff aziz, which of course sort of reminded me of ttc. haha. btw, i'm doing fine though i haven't seen him in like two weeks. lol. secondly, there were other kendarats to help clear the plates and wipe the tables. so us girls didnt have to do it. and one of them was not bad looking. i nicknamed him CK - cute kendarat. haha. come on lah, it's me. i live in search for cute guys. LOL. and i swore i got a vibe from him that maybe just maybe he was interested too? i don't know but it really felt that way. but arghh! i won't ever be able to see him again - unless a miracle happens and we're like fated or something. it's so damn frustrating. should have asked for his name at least. or better, his number. AARRGGHH!! i wish i could fucking turn back time!! damn it lissya, damn it!

my life is just so full of regrets and things that are left unsaid. i mean i had a perfect opportunity and i blew it yet again. seriously, how the hell am i going to achieve my aim of getting a boyfriend if i keep this up?!

right. i'm crapping. so off i go to regret some more and then sleep. haha.

lastly, 

CONGRATS to

my cousin, ASRUL NIZAM and his bride, SITI MARIAM!