Posted on: Saturday, March 03, 2007
Posted at: 9:23:00 pm
Posted at: 9:23:00 pm
the past week has been a living hell for me.
to my parents:
i'm so disappointed. you have been wanting the best out of me and i know that with one less subject, i can spend more time on my other subjects. you have know idea how i absolutely detest Physics. and just when i was so happy to have submitted that damn form and officially dropped Physics, you had to call my teacher behind my back to retrieve the form. do you have any idea how betrayed and hurt i was? do you know that i cried all night because of that? that is how much i hate Physics. so much that i'll sit through the lessons for your sake but i won't give a damn and i won't sit for any of the exams. it seems silly to be arguing just over me dropping a damn subject. but you just can't understand. you control my life as if i'm a puppet. i never had the rights to make my own decisions. you were the ones who had always made most of the important decisions for me. i'm no longer the little girl i used to be. i'm all grown up now and all i'm asking for is just a little freedom. it hurts to know that i have to take this fucking subject just to please you all. don't you give a damn to how i feel?
to him:
everything ended on Thursday night. i poured my heart out, saying how much you've disappointed and hurt me. but all you could say was "ok. fine. see you during the holidays". do you even bother about how i feel? do you care that your words and actions have hurt me? we were so close but we grew apart this year. what happened to us? you complained that i never made time for us but you were the one who stood me up and you were the one who lied and made up excuses to cancel our dates to hang out with your friends. i never knew you would lie to me. if only you would have been more truthful.. you have no idea how hard it was letting you go. i fucking love you but the pain you caused me is too much to bear. it's not fair for me to be the only one in this relationship who shows love with all of my brutally broken heart. maybe we were just never meant to be. but in my heart, i hope that we still are. maybe not now. maybe in the future. whatever it is, i hope that this will not affect our friendship of more than 10 years.
well, on the bright side, i'm now a staff sergeant. yay.
enough said. ciao.
i wasn't lying,
when i said "i miss you".
i wasn't joking,
when i told you how much i loved you.
i wasn't playing around,
when i gave my heart to you.
but i guess neither were you,
when you broke it into two.
7 more days till competition!
to my parents:
i'm so disappointed. you have been wanting the best out of me and i know that with one less subject, i can spend more time on my other subjects. you have know idea how i absolutely detest Physics. and just when i was so happy to have submitted that damn form and officially dropped Physics, you had to call my teacher behind my back to retrieve the form. do you have any idea how betrayed and hurt i was? do you know that i cried all night because of that? that is how much i hate Physics. so much that i'll sit through the lessons for your sake but i won't give a damn and i won't sit for any of the exams. it seems silly to be arguing just over me dropping a damn subject. but you just can't understand. you control my life as if i'm a puppet. i never had the rights to make my own decisions. you were the ones who had always made most of the important decisions for me. i'm no longer the little girl i used to be. i'm all grown up now and all i'm asking for is just a little freedom. it hurts to know that i have to take this fucking subject just to please you all. don't you give a damn to how i feel?
to him:
everything ended on Thursday night. i poured my heart out, saying how much you've disappointed and hurt me. but all you could say was "ok. fine. see you during the holidays". do you even bother about how i feel? do you care that your words and actions have hurt me? we were so close but we grew apart this year. what happened to us? you complained that i never made time for us but you were the one who stood me up and you were the one who lied and made up excuses to cancel our dates to hang out with your friends. i never knew you would lie to me. if only you would have been more truthful.. you have no idea how hard it was letting you go. i fucking love you but the pain you caused me is too much to bear. it's not fair for me to be the only one in this relationship who shows love with all of my brutally broken heart. maybe we were just never meant to be. but in my heart, i hope that we still are. maybe not now. maybe in the future. whatever it is, i hope that this will not affect our friendship of more than 10 years.
well, on the bright side, i'm now a staff sergeant. yay.
enough said. ciao.
i wasn't lying,
when i said "i miss you".
i wasn't joking,
when i told you how much i loved you.
i wasn't playing around,
when i gave my heart to you.
but i guess neither were you,
when you broke it into two.
7 more days till competition!