Posted on: Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Posted at: 10:48:00 pm
tired. so very tired. i'm worn out both mentally and physically. tired from all the dance practices and St John trainings. tired from trying to understand everything being taught but with much difficulties. i'm tired emotionally too. i'm tired of getting my heart toyed with. tired of having to cry my heart out every night just to let go of the pain. i'm worried. it's only the first month of the year and i'm already so exhausted. and yet i know that there's a silver lining in every cloud; that if i work hard enough, i'll make it. PERSEVERE. i know i have to. but would someone please tell me how? 'cause i really can't take it anymore. a friend told me that if i keep on pretending and lying to myself and everyone else that i'm ok, there'll be a point when i can't hide everything anymore and i'll just crack - and by then, it'll be harder to pick up the pieces...

i'm gonna make it...right?