Posted on: Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Posted at: 1:45:00 pm
if only the world was a happy place
then I wouldn't have to wrap these wounds
and hide the blood
but if the world was a happy place
I wouldn't have to bleed.

if only I had courage
then I could speak the truth
I could tell you how much I love you
but if I could do that
you might leave.

if only I could touch you
then maybe your heart would race a mile a minute
like mine does whenever you're around
but... if I could touch you
I might be hurt again.

if only the world was perfect
if only my love was pure
if only we knew what we wanted
if only people weren't cruel
if only I wasn't a girl.

I'll bleed a million times
and die a thousand deaths
for you, and only you
if only, if only, you'll lie to me
and say you love me back won't ever leave.

- written by yours truly

supposed to be on a raya outing today but something came up and i've just no mood to go out right now. anyway, i am kinda relieved that my other two raya outings yesterday and tomorrow are cancelled. i need room to breathe, seriously. things happen and they can't be avoided.

if only...