how would you feel knowing or thinking you did your best, you give your all but it still isn't good enough? that's how i felt today. after the depressing prelims review. i don't think i can take anymore stress. i'm like a little teeny weeny cup that's overflowing with water that is stress. i used to tell myself that stress is good, that it keeps me motivated, driven and focused. but a girl can only take that much stress. sometimes, no most times these days, i feel like giving up. simply giving up everything. just quit alevels. quit school altogether. so much pressure from family and school is driving me nuts. they have all these high expectations of me but i'm so scared. so afraid that i'll disappoint them. but why do i feel that no matter how hard i try, it's not good enough anymore? will mugging till i feel like dying for these six weeks be worth it? should i even bother trying?

just kill me now. please.

i can't breathe. i can't breathe no more.