Posted on: Friday, February 27, 2009
Posted at: 9:34:00 pm

yay watched "he's just not that into you" today with sawawak, yf, and zhix! not the awesomest movie around but definitely nice to watch. basically it's just a typical chick flick luh but i can so totally relate to some of the content in the movie. haha. yes, i can be quite delusional at times. and jennifer aniston is so pretty (: go watch if you're in the mood for something romantic and light hearted.

and yup, today was one of those rare opportunities that i actually have free time after school to hang out with my friends. because of the change in my timetable, i end school at 1.30pm every friday (even though i now have two consecutive afternoon pe lessons)! and the two art classes were supposedly excused from the harp appreciation thing this afternoon. don't know why though. maybe they want us to go for some science appreciation thing? lol. but at least i finally have some time to catch up on my social life. and i need to earn some money!! i want to shop!! ):

this weekend will be pretty hectic. i have to wake up early on both sat and sun! ): there's road run tmr and we have to be in school by 7.30am. damn early lah. plus I DON'T WANT TO RUN AT ALL! and on sun, there's dance practice so we have to be at kallang by 8.15am. ahh! i can't sleep in this weekend ): and tmr evening, i'm watching a dance performance with fellow malay dancers at esplanade. hmm looks like i won't have much time to rest this weekend. but at least i get to spend it with people i love. so yeah, every cloud has a silver lining right (:

on another note, i don't know why but for the past few days i've been waking up feeling gloomy and emo. and sometimes during the day, i will have a very heavy heart and if you were to put me in some corner all by myself, i might actually start crying. haha. must be stress or smth.

enough said. mostly cos i have nothing much to say. haha.


i say a prayer with every heart beat
i fall in love whenever we meet

Posted on: Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Posted at: 10:48:00 pm
i'm looking at you and my heart loves the view.

gosh this feeling is getting way out of hand. it's come to this point when even the slightest glimpse of you is enough to make me smile inside and my heart flutter. i really never intended it to be this big. i never thought that i would want it to evolve into something more. but in this miserable and lonely life of mine, i've been wondering. wondering if the risk is worth even taking at all. but past experiences tell me that i would be a fool to take the risk. a fool to get my hopes up and watch them fall right in front of me. maybe i should just ignore this and let it fade with time. maybe it's just a silly phase i'm going through. urgh but that's just the little voice in my head trying to convince this stubborn heart of mine. truth is, my heart wants to scream it all out. not knowing is always much worse than to know right. if i'm always scared, i'll lose you anyway right. right?

you make my days just a little brighter.

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Posted at: 1:43:00 am
I AM TIRED BEYOND WORDS.
(with bruises all over - mostly on the right side of my body)

BUT I'M SURVIVING (:

Posted on: Sunday, February 22, 2009
Posted at: 4:07:00 pm
ok i really don't know what to blog about. basically my life has been pretty much the same, revolving mostly around dance and school. it may sound boring but i honestly don't think so. school has been much more fun these days. i look forward to being with my crazy friends and going for dance but i definitely don't look forward to studying and boring lessons luh. haha.

so for the rest of the post, i thought i should share some interesting secrets found on www.postsecrets.com. it's a really interesting site and some of the secrets are really heartfelt or just downright wacky. so i recommend the site if you're really really bored! just that they only update their secrets every sunday. 

ENJOY (:






i lost myself in fantasies of you and me together

Posted on: Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Posted at: 10:19:00 pm
hello world. yes, this is one of the rare times that you'll see me update on a school night, right smack in the middle of the week. so enjoy it. heh. and the only reason i actually have the time and/or energy to update is cos there's no dance today and surprisingly, no homework to be done urgently (or at least none that i know of). for the first time this week, i can truly rest (:

and gosh, it's only wednesday. is it just me or does this week pass by really really slowly? but maybe i shouldnt complain cos i have been wanting for time to slow down since i-dont-know-when. haha. had dance on both monday and tuesday. it was really tiring and all but i think dance practices have been getting crappier as well. haha. oh and btw, with the creative minds of saniah, gwen and lizhu, my new name is now 'FAR-KNEE KUWAIT-IAN RADIO WOMAN'. don't ask why. it's a loooong story. three separate stories in fact. hahaha. and i'm still amazed at the fact that cikgu knows and remembers my name :D

and yes, as you can see my dance practices have been increased to four times a week - mon, tue, thu and sat. and what's more, they're planning to have us train during our free periods which i think isnt the brightest of ideas. lessons are already tiring enough and free periods are supposed to be for us to take a break right. and if they make me train during my precious 30mins break, let's just say things may get ugly. haha. but yeah, it's already tiring enough now. i'm getting bruises all over and my back is really really aching. i feel like buying a dozen boxes of salonpas and pasting it all over my back. haha that's really how bad it is. BUT i know all these is necessary if we want to get at least a gold for syf. so sacrifices must be made. i just hope my studies wont be so adversely affected. oh and btw i'm dying in econs. someone please help! 

on another note, i'm still really confused. i'm trying to read the signs but nothing seems to make sense anymore. maybe i should just stop getting my hopes up. maybe i should just accept the fact that things won't ever be like it was before. maybe i shouldn't let my heart get broken all over again. maybe.

well i'm off now to catch up on my dramas that i havent been able to watch in a long time. till next time! :D


so i kinda sorta maybe like you a lot more than i had originally planned (:


Posted on: Saturday, February 14, 2009
Posted at: 8:41:00 pm
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! <3

yes today is the over-cliched but still widely celebrated vday. and i spent the day with my dearest malay dancers (: we had practice in the morning and after that, a group of us went to have vday lunch together. after much deliberating, we finally decided to go to plaza spura. but we didn't get to eat at pizza hut as originally planned cos everywhere was just too full. so we settled on pastamania and i managed to satisfy my crazing for pizza in the end (: and after that we randomly sat somewhere outside plaza spura and played 'i never'. haha. people were staring but we didn't care. i really really had fun today! i think i can safely say that out of all my vdays spent being single, this is the best one to date :DD

and for the past week, nothing much happened really. it just felt a tad more busier and tiring. and yesterday was vday eve right and friday the 13th too. i really had fun yesterday too! although i felt like i was so busy, helping interact to tie the balloons and running around to make sure that my dear friends got their vday presents from me. hehe. and i managed to give tac that smth although there was much complications. but yeah, he did receive it :D quite sad that i wasn't there when he received it and i hope that the new complications that have evolved will be resolved soon! hehehe. hmm but you know, actually part of me hopes he secretly knows and another part of me doesn't want him to know at all.

oh and i went to talentime with the malay dancers too. supported gwen and yeah, gwen, you were AWESOME. haha. basically to sum up yesterday's talentime experience: it was hot and stuffy but i had a great time with the malay dancers and my classmates and it's always fun to comment on other people's performances. hahaha. but i lost the two pink gerberas that yanhui and lizhu gave! T.T i really almost cried ok! so sad that i couldn't find them, someone must have taken them. haish. i feel so bad for losing the flowers! so sorry lizhu and yanhui! ): 

well before i end off my post, i would like to thank everyone who gave me smth for vday, no matter how big or small, or even simply wished me a happy vday. i really appreciate them all. you guys make me feel so loved :D


i wanna be the only hand you need to hold on to

Posted on: Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Posted at: 12:18:00 am
yes people, i officially declare myself head over heels.

and i hope nothing goes wrong this vday. someone told me that vday was about taking a leap of faith and yeah, that's what i'm doing. i'm taking a huge leap of faith, hoping that all will turn out well in the end. besides, taking risks are fun. so let this be a fun experience then :D

and this song so totally describes all the weirdness i'm feeling right now. haha.

Sugar Rush by A*Teens

I get a high whenever you're around
Sweeping from my head to my toes
I gotta get my feet back on the ground

Cos you make me go out of my way
Crossing the line making me say what I have in mind

You make me so excited
And I don't wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my Sugar Rush
Ain't nothing better baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I start to blush
You are my Sugar Rush

I got a sweet tooth and a taste for you
And it might be too obvious but
I can't help myself from what I do

Cos you make me go out of my way
Crossing the line
Making me say what I have in mind

You make me so excited
And I don't wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my Sugar Rush
Ain't nothing better baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I start to blush
You are my Sugar Rush

Baby you're my Sugar Rush
I get weak and talk too much
You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted
Baby you're my Sugar Rush
I get weak and talk too much

Cos you make me go out of my way
Crossing the line
Making me say what I have in mind

You make me so excited
And I don't wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my Sugar Rush
Ain't nothing better baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I start to blush
You are my Sugar Rush

Baby you're my Sugar Rush
I get weak and talk too much
You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted
Baby you're my Sugar Rush
I get weak and talk too much

You are my Sugar Rush


am i your sugar rush too?

Posted on: Sunday, February 08, 2009
Posted at: 11:40:00 pm
yay! i finally changed my blogskin. and in thinking's words, i have "turned on the lights". haha. and my new blogskin is supposed to some sort of celebrate the upcoming vday though i know it may seem a tad depressing. haha. 

i've finally went shopping for vday presents. so now i'm almost broke ): but it's all worth it, in the name of spreading love and joy. haha. and i really hope that there'll be a malay dance vday outing on sat! maybe lizhu will have better luck at organising an outing than me. right lizhu? haha. so do come people!! it's really a blessing in disguise that vday falls on a day we have md training (:

and i really hope i don't chicken out on giving tac smth this vday!!

school again tomorrow. whopee-doo *rolls eyes*


i want to be your secret valentine

Posted on: Friday, February 06, 2009
Posted at: 10:38:00 pm
woah this week has passed by really really fast. i didn't even feel it zoom past me. and i'm guessing that this will continue for many more weeks to come. i wish time could just slow down cos this year is starting off great, at least better than last year, and i want to enjoy every single moment of it (:

well highlights of the week include of course, the new batch of jc1s or in nj terms, sh1s, coming in. and like seriously, there's no more space left in the school!! making it 4 years was already stretching the limit. now it's just too much! can't the damn school see that?? but yeah, this year no more rvians dominating nj. haha. and there's more and more from neighbourhood schools. yeah should be proud of that considering that i came from a neighbourhood school too. haha. and i remember coming to school on monday and actually feeling outcasted and dull. cos i was walking in the school with huge groups of sh1s in sec school uniform surrounding me and compared to their variety of colours, i felt so dull in my grey uniform ):

and yeah, they had five days of orientation but i feel that compared to last year, their orientation seems so much more quieter. hmm. and i went to watch their walk in, which many said was quite bad. well i guess they're right. compared to last year, it really is quite bad. and what made it worse was the extremely terribly poor lighting. but the walk in was quite entertaining. plus i got to see a certain someone (:

and we had cca fair on wednesday! fun fun fun! i think everyone was quite high that day. performed the sarung dance yet again. it was a mad rush to get the makeup and all done and in the end, i realise that we're the only dance group that put on pretty elaborate makeup and headgear. but at least we looked pretty (: and we didn't have a single practice at all this time. but they said we looked fine. so yay! and we managed to get 13 people to sign up, way more than expected. hopefully at least half of them will decide to join. we need more mainstreamers and singaporeans in malay dance. haha. but at the end of the day, all that mattered was how much fun i had with my fellow dancers :DDD

and i can't wait for valentine's day. who knows, maybe my wildest dreams might come true and tac might declare his love for me. hahahaha.

enough said.


i like it when you say 'hi' to me or simply just smile
cos even for just that moment, i crossed your mind.