ok, now on to another topic. today is the last day of 2008 and it's so unbelievable. i mean the year really came and went without me noticing it. and just when i was getting used to the hectic life of jc, it will all come to an end pretty soon. and don't get me wrong, i really want to get out of njc and get alevels over and done with. but the thought of moving on to another stage of my life scares the shit out of me. the future is so unpredictable and scary. 

well i promised my new year's resolutions righttt? honestly, it's hard to stick to them and in a few months time, i think i'll totally forget about it. haha. but i think it's good to just plan out what you want to achieve in the next year and just keep yourself in check. right. so here's my new year's resolutions for 2009:

life's been pretty much dull since returning back to singapore. there's nothing interesting to do and there's still a huge pile of homework with my name on it :( but i'm proud to say that i finally did a significant amount of my homework. finished two math papers, the tutorial on probability and my part for the sea history assignment :) and there's still a million and one more homework yet to be done. boo! i sure know how to dampen my own mood huh. heh.

oh and i watched the oh so popular twilight on monday with my cousin and my sister. well, the movie's not bad. quite nice actually. but this is coming from someone who didn't (and will not) read the book. so i can't say if it does justice to the book. 

and believe it or not, since the holidays started, i've been jogging and exercising daily. well, at least i try my best to. i'm trying to shed a few kilograms before school starts, knowing very well that i usually gain a few unwanted kilograms over long holidays. haha. but that's not quite the point. i just wanted to mention that i actually enjoy jogging by the sea. yes, i do live by the sea - the one that borders johor and singapore. i like the cool sea breeze in the evening. i feel so relaxed and calm jogging by the sea with my ipod plugged into my ears. it feels really nice to empty my mind and just not think about anything. i haven't felt like that for such a long time. life's been just too hectic and i know that it'll get worse next year.

and speaking about next year, i am so not looking forward to it. but at the same time, i also want to get it over and done with. hmm. i don't know. it's just that a huge part of me doesn't want to grow up. i wanna be a kid forever. the future scares me.

new year's resolutions to come later :)

i know it's a few hours early but i wish everyone a very MERRY CHRISTMAS! enjoy the public holiday people :)

i just wanted to say that i've made up my mind. i'm not going to be confused anymore. cos all that matters to me now is for you to promise me that you'll be happy. even if it's not with me. even if it's with her. even if we're not lovers. even if we're not friends. even if we're strangers. i just want you to be happy. knowing that you are happy will set me free. 

but i will always have a little faith in us. i have always believed that if we were ever meant to be, we will be. love always finds a way right? so for now, i'll keep you locked in my heart and move on with my life. i need to be able to put aside my feelings for you. i need to open up my heart again to others. even if you're not the one, i want to be able to love and be loved again. 

and know this too, the feelings i have for you will always be there buried deep inside my heart. like a secret admirer, i'll love you from afar - both physically and emotionally. you'll always take my breath away. and if one day, you decide to have the same feelings for me too, i'll be waiting my love. i'll always be waiting.

so always be happy ok. don't break that promise.

Then we went to this crocodile farm cum mini zoo. I swear I have never seen so many crocodiles in my entire life. And they were all so huge!

we managed to catch the crocodiles in action feeding.

After lunch, we visited tons of other places too. Learned abit of the history of Sarawak. Like how Kuching got its name and all. Quite interesting but it does get boring lah. Heh. Went to the musuem and saw real human skulls being hung in the exhibits. Apparently, in the tribes, the warriors would hang the skulls of their victims in their houses as a mark of their strength and skill. Pretty gruesome huh? We also went to a pottery-making factory and watched them carve the intricate designs on the pots and vases. I wished I had their patience and determination. Haha. And the pottery sold there was way cheaper than in the souvenir shops but the quality was just as good :D If we could, I bet the moms would have bought those huge vases to put at home. Haha.

And our last stop was the tower in the heart of Kuching. Ok, I'm not so sure if it's in the heart of Kuching, but it definitely is somewhere in Kuching. Hehe. It was about twelve storeys high. The view was breathtaking. You could see the whole of Kuching and even as far as the mountains of Kalimantan, Indonesia. I loved the wind the best (:


we couldn't resist taking a groupshot. hehe.


the wind's nice but it messes up the hair ):

DAY THREE.
Moving day! Haha basically, we moved to another hotel or rather, a resort called 'Damai Puri'. And on the way there, we stopped by the cat musuem. A whole load of stuff about cats in there. I love cats but I wasn't really interested in knowing stuff about them. Haha.

and these are the older kitties. i should be in the above group but there were only six holes ):


a real mummified cat from egypt. ooh.

And after we reached Damai Puri, chucked our luggage in the rooms and off we were to visit Kampung Budaya Sarawak or the cultural village. It was an interesting visit. Went in the replicas of the tribal and traditional houses, and there were many mini performances and demonstrations in the houses itself. They even gave this passport thing where we could collect stamps every time we visited a different house - immigration style. So cute seh. Haha. And to end off our visit there, we watched a cultural show which showcased the many different kinds of traditional tribal dances. I'm into traditional dance, so yep I enjoyed it :D

can you spot the supposedly tribal guy? and we should have gotten a picture of my dad who was taking this photo. his pose was so hilarious. sexy la konon. haha


it was a long way up to some of the houses. whew tiring tau.



macam pompuan cine dalam rumah melayu. haha.


watching the show reminded me of the sarawak dance i performed in sec2 :D

After the show, we had a late lunch nearby. Then, we went back to the hotel for a short swim in the pool. And we found out that even though the resort was really nice, there were no night activities at all. The swimming pool closed at seven and practically all the other activities ended at seven too. Pathetic right? So we ended up just relaxing in the room for the rest of the night. We were worn out anyway.

Oh, and I couldn't sleep well that night. Cos it was raining very heavily and the sound of the waves crashing was just so loud. The waves must have been pretty big too cos I felt the room vibrate several times. Scary seh. My mind that night was filled with thoughts of a tsunami. Nonsense ah Lissya. Haha.

DAY FOUR.
After breakfast, we walked along the beach. It was low tide so we had a long walk from the shore to the sea. I love beaches :D Wouldn't mind getting married on one. Hehe.


in sarawak terms, this is an example of a 'volkswagen'. haha.


we're standing in the south china sea!

we literally sunk in the sands! it was hard getting out after some time. heh.

Went for a swim in the pool after that. We tried to find some adventurous activities but there weren't any. Considered trekking but most of us didn't bring covered shoes and it was already quite late to set off. Considered cycling but there were only ten bicycles and eleven of us. Pathetic kan? So in the end, we thought of going jungle trekking abit in search of a waterfall. Uh but after eating lunch, we were all so tired and lazy so we didn't find the waterfall in the end. We didn't even make it into the jungle. Haha. But along the way, we did find this mini waterfall next to the road. We decided to take a photo with it to make ourselves feel better. At least we found some sort of a waterfall right? Haha.

We then decided to sneak into Damai Beach Resort to see if they have better activities there. And much to our relief, their activities are pretty much the same. All the fun water activities were closed anyway due to the monsoon season. And the resort was way more crowded than in Damai Puri. So yeah, it made me feel better that at least we have some peace and quiet. Haha.


we found the (mini) waterfall! hehe.


at damai beach resort.



it was a long and tiring walk k.

After all that walking, we returned to our resort and planned to go swimming in the pool again since there's nothing else to do. But we decided to stop by the beach and walk along the sea first. It was high tide and the waves were super strong. So one by one we got knocked down by the waves and got drenched. Haha. Even me and my sister, who weren't planning on going swimming again, got totally drenched. So yeah, we had some unplanned and spontaneous fun playing in the waves despite one of the twins losing their specs. Best la sey! :DD


the waves are really much stronger than they look.

DAY FIVE.
Last day in Sarawak. After checking out of the hotel, our most trusted driver brought us to some recommended places for us to buy the famous Kek Lapis Sarawak. Both families bought sixteen kek lapis in total. I'm sure that if we could, we would have bought so much more. Haha. Also bought the famous ikan masin there. Shucks I forgot the name. I think it's called Ikan Terubuk Masin? Not sure ah. Bought five in total.

After all that souvenir shopping, we were back in the airport and off to Singapore. And during our flight back, we experienced some air turbulence. And it was my first time experiencing turbulence. Quite scary actually. But I was too sleepy to really feel scared or anything. Haha.


final group shot at damai puri resort.


i couldn't resist taking a photo of the pretty kek lapis before it was all eaten up. heh.

So yup, that pretty much sums up my holiday in Sarawak. Urgh. I hate being back in Singapore. Cos it just means more rotting at home and supposedly doing my homework ): I DON'T WANT NEXT YEAR TO EVER EVER COME!!!!!!

But I did get a piece of good news when I reached back in Singapore. Found out that I'm receiving a Good Progress Award worth $200. Whee! I can now get that Esprit top I've been eyeing!! Studying for promos did pay off in the end :DDD

Enough said. Till next time!

Well yeah, I'll be off to Sarawak with my family and my dad's friend's family. I have barely done any packing. Ah but I'm soooo lazy. Haha. But that's not really the point. I just have this overwhelming mixture of feelings right now. Part of me is excited. Part of me is nervous. Part of me is full of happiness. Part of me is filled with dread. And a huge, a huge part of me is just so scared.

Well time to go pack now.

I shouldn't forget to pack a couple of fake smiles and a whole lot of courage.

But maybe I should leave my heart here. Just in case it gets broken again.

Well, the previous week has been pretty much boring. Oh but I finally brought myself to do some holiday homework. I completed like half a math paper! *pats myself on back* (: And on Monday, we had a Malay Dance outing though it really doesn't qualify as one 'cos it was only me, Lizhu, Huiwei and Gwen in the end. And all we did was to have dinner together, though I'm not saying it wasn't nice. But I do hope we have a proper dance outing maybe when most of the others come back. But I don't want to be the one planning again. Haha. And speaking of Malay Dance, I just found out that we might have to come down to help the juniors with their trainings with Ms Maya. I miss dance so it's great to be able to dance again and it would do me some good to actually do something other than rot at home. But I think I've gotten a bit too comfortable just rotting at home despite me complaining alot about being bored and all. Haha.

Ok let's just fast forward the rest of the week and talk about today. Well today I went out with my family and we were in the car, driving along the expressway. And as we turned into somewhere, there was this guy lying on the road. I think he was on his motorcycle and skidded or something. So my dad stopped the car and carried him with help from another man to a grass patch. Although I didn't exactly get out of the car, from my view, it didn't seem as if he had any major injuries. Just some cuts on his arm and a pretty bad laceration on his ankle. But he looked as if he was in so much pain. Must be the shock and all I guess. Actually pitied him cos judging from his attire, he was a delivery guy and was returning to work after delivering something. And he was not bad looking though even though his face was filled with pain. Haha. But yeah, after calling the ambulance, we had to drive off cos we were blocking the traffic but the other men stayed with him till the ambulance came. Yeah hope he's fine even though I don't know who he is :D Oh but I must say I'm pretty much horrified at the people in the car in front of us cos they didn't even stop to help and just drove off. Some people are just so not helpful.

Ok enough said. I want to go watch some Korean dramas :DD

PS. I'll be away in Sarawak holiday-ing from 10 to 14 Dec. So don't miss me yeah? Haha

And wishing all Muslims a SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI in advance! (:

To you: Just when I thought I walked away, you pulled me back into this mess. Now I'm just confused and really hurt.