whew. taking a breather before i start studying again. 3 papers down this week. emaths is fine. literature was a hell. i didn't manage to finish my last question and i crapped through the whole paper. oh wells. today was history. it was kinda like a breeze. except for the sbq:comparison. it was fine but i panicked when i saw the time. so, i crapped. nothing to do but just pray that i will do well.

last weekend, my parents asked me what i wanted for my birthday. and for the first time in years, i'm stumped. i really didn't know what i want. in the end, they bought me an ipod nano. i should be happy, shouldn't i? but the truth is, i don't feel the slightest bit excited about my birthday. maybe because i have all the material things that i could ever want. i guess the saying is pretty true: money can't always buy happiness. haish. maybe what i want is him. for him to say that he likes me too. that's impossible. but a girl can dream, can't she? haha.

i really like him. i just realised how much. these days, i rarely see him. absence does make the heart fonder. but sometimes, i wonder if it's just a mindless infatuation, a silly crush or do i really like him. it's making me confused and i really don't wish to think about it - at least not until after exams. all i know, my heart, my mind, it's all fixated on HIM.

my life's a complete mess right now. and i'm getting over each obstacle one by one - starting with the exams, which will be over by next thursday. i can't wait. till then...