today was flag day for the Methodist Welfare Service. tiring but i had fun. was a different experience as compared to the other flag days i have participated in (ie. st john nad LBKM). this time, it was for a religion of not my own BUT it's still for a very good cause since it's still helping the needy no matter what race or religion they are. they are still human in every single way. okay. this is a very touchy subject so i will proceed no further in it.

most of us were assigned to Tiong Bahru MRT and the area there. but me, nina, shirin and arifah decided to go somewhere else since so many people are going to the same area. surely, it will be hard to get donations right? anyway, me and arifah met a really nice uncle. he actually bought for us some hot soya bean for us. i was so touched by his gracious action. although, it would be better if he had bought cold soya bean... haha. i'm so unappreciative. thanks very, very much. if it weren't for you, i might have dehydrated. :))

then, went home and rushed like mad to go for my piano lessons. my playing was HORRIBLE! i need to practise more. oh ya, next time you wash your parents' car, bring down a sponge or something. haha. don't tell me you're gonna scrub the car with your bare hands. lol. (you should know who you are). hmm. took my ic photo today. eergh. i look sleepy. haish. nvm. it's just a stupid ic anyway. lol.

okay, enough said. till next time... HAPPY HOLIDAYS! (i hope)

whew! just reached home and i'm drop dead tired. plus i'm drenched. it's really raining heavily here. and just when i reached under the shelter of the void deck of a flat, guess who i walked past? yup, him - i think cause i was wiping my specs at that time. so, everything was literally a blur. haha. i didn't see his face but i was pretty sure it's him by the way he walked - like a proud peacock. can't believe i'm saying this but i'm still drawn to him physically. if only things had gone better at that time...

watched xmen today. hmm... not bad lah. just slightly above average. anyway, holidays are here and there are so many nice movies coming up. i feel like watching all of them. haha. yeah. i WISH. there's so much homework and so many days filled with courses, trainings, remedials bla bla. am i looking forward to the holidays? not really cause i won't get to see him. hehe. speaking of him, i'm so tempted to confess to him this holiday but i'm not too sure. my mind is overflowing with thoughts. and as you know, i'm a hell of a fickle-minded and indecisive person..

well, enough said. i need to rest. i have flag day tomorrow. BORING...

whee~ i'm finally 15! hehe. it was just like yesterday... lolx. craps. yesterday was ookay. quite boring actually and abit saddening cause my fave american idol contestent, Elliot, was sent home yesterday. boohoos. on the flip side, i received a lot of nice gifts. tnx all.

well, i received all my papers back except for CME. but i will surely fail it. first time ever will i fail a CME paper. haha. my results ain't too good. alot of extremes.

today was full of ups and downs...

first, we received our EL papers 1 and 2. i got 64 or 64.5 for overall. it's quite bad for my standard but comparitively to the whole level, it was pretty good. the highest was only like 68 lah. and the highest msg is 4.9 (my class) which really sucks. wtf.

next, was Amath. need i say more? obviously i failed (by 3 marks). honestly, i expected to pass cause i studied hard and i really thought i improved. haish. next, i got back my humanities, my supposed forte. well, i did quite well. 21/24 for history and 19/24 for social studies. overall, 82/100. yipee! A1! haha.

the last paper i received for the day was a huge blow to the head - HML. i only got 57.5 for overall. wtf. i know my malay isin't that good but i never once expected to do so bad. this was mostly due to my paper 1. i really went off tangent for my narrative. DAMN!

all these aside, we then had the cheering competition. i'm like so totally worn out and my throat is so sore BUT it was definitely worth it. had a GREAT time. we were like LUNATICS. haha. we danced to every single song they played and screamed our lungs out during the games, which we won thrice for the scavenger hunt. :)) but i have to say that my fave part of the whole competition was the freeze thingy game. i absolutely loved it when the 2 "finalists" danced together - the 3t2 vietnamese guy and a 3a girl. one word to describe it - HOT! haha. it was like the type of dancing you would normally see at nightclubs. super COOL! lol.

well, that's about it for today. i'm so tired and american idol is on tonight!! whee~ oops. i forgot. how could i forget?!?! the classes that got in to the finals are... (drumroll)... 3P2 HUH?, 3B SQUIDS and of course 3t1 ONENANO! woots~ the best birthday present for me so far! yeah!

just came back from cheering comp practise. WAH! damn tired but it was worth it. the day started out badly. at first, i didn't know that there was a practise today cause somebody didn't call me. i guess the relay system doesn't work. so, had to rush to meet arifah, who apparently didn't receive any message too. i met HIM just as he left his school and me, at the bus stop. he looked so good. too bad, his attitude sucks. haish. but got over him so long ago. hmm. but somehow, i wish we could have stayed on longer. in the bus to woodlands interchange, there was this group of slss guys who were really playing a fool. so immature. then, this guy was so frustated that he shouted at the boys and threatened to tell the principal if they won't stop. serves them right.

after that, met arifah at cck control station and went to iris' house. unfortunately, we don't really know where it was. so, we had to wait for her to fetch us from the bus stop. hahas. then, we practise and practise till it's almost perfect. i have high hopes of us getting into the finals. i hope.

really can't wait for tomorrow. onenano's gonna bring the "hall" down!!! woots~

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

gave my mummy dearest a digital camera cum video camera cum mp3 player. actually, not i buy one lah. my dad buy from his friend. then, give my mum. it's more like for my dad lah 'cause my mum can't even operate the dvd player what more a complicated device such as a camera!! haha. but my mum still look happy. nvm. later, maybe going out to treat her to a nice meal. yipee!

this past few days of no school has been great. spend so much money. let me see, for the past few days, i bought myself a new bag, nickelback cd (just to name a few). in short, i had a great time unwinding and destressing after the exams.

well, cheering comp is just around the corner. i can't wait to find out what the rest prepared. i trust that they will come up with something good to ensure us a one-way ticket to the finals. yeah onenano! lol.

enough said for now. tomorrow will be back to school. somehow, i can't wait. till then.

4 MORE DAYS! :))

EXAMS ARE OVER!!! yeah. no more sleepless nights. no more mugging till the wee hours of the morning. well at least not till end of year. finally, i can catch up on my sleep. i don't think i will do vey well for mid-year though most of the papers are manageable. i know i will flunk amath and possibly, physics. but who cares? for now, it's eat, sleep, eat, sleep everyday. lol.

hmm, as for him, maybe i've gotten over him abit. i'm not as obsessed as i used to be. but he's still cute. haha. though, maybe i should just leave it as it is and not attempt anything stupid. i don't know. i'm so confused. oh wells, i guess only time will tell.

been listening to this song lately. it's kinda an old song (before i was born) but the words really speak to me. it's debbie gibson's "we could be together". really sweet song.

Chorus:

If you said "jump!" i'd say "how high?"

If you said "run!" i'd run and fly

Just for the chance

Just for the moment

Should the moment pass us by

And if you ask once i'll tell you twice

I'll ignore the world's advice

If we could be together

For a while

Bridge:

Wait'll i tell my other friends

They'll all think i'm crazy-

And ya know what?

That depends...

'cause i'm crazy in love

With you

And everyone's best won't do

They'll say my hopes

Will not come true

There are no guarantees

But if it means

There's even a possibility

Then i'll give up whatever it takes

I know i've made some mistakes before

It may be just another closed door

But we could be together

For a while

really nothing much to say. cheering competition is coming and i can't wait. 3T-onenano sure go into finals one.. (i hope) supposed to go for gamelan today at 2pm. alas, i don't wish too. lol. sorry shirin. actually, i already have plans to go out a bit later in the afternoon. hmm. i guess that's about it. i promise to update more later. till then.. and happy vesak day.

whew. taking a breather before i start studying again. 3 papers down this week. emaths is fine. literature was a hell. i didn't manage to finish my last question and i crapped through the whole paper. oh wells. today was history. it was kinda like a breeze. except for the sbq:comparison. it was fine but i panicked when i saw the time. so, i crapped. nothing to do but just pray that i will do well.

last weekend, my parents asked me what i wanted for my birthday. and for the first time in years, i'm stumped. i really didn't know what i want. in the end, they bought me an ipod nano. i should be happy, shouldn't i? but the truth is, i don't feel the slightest bit excited about my birthday. maybe because i have all the material things that i could ever want. i guess the saying is pretty true: money can't always buy happiness. haish. maybe what i want is him. for him to say that he likes me too. that's impossible. but a girl can dream, can't she? haha.

i really like him. i just realised how much. these days, i rarely see him. absence does make the heart fonder. but sometimes, i wonder if it's just a mindless infatuation, a silly crush or do i really like him. it's making me confused and i really don't wish to think about it - at least not until after exams. all i know, my heart, my mind, it's all fixated on HIM.

my life's a complete mess right now. and i'm getting over each obstacle one by one - starting with the exams, which will be over by next thursday. i can't wait. till then...