Posted on: Saturday, February 25, 2006
Posted at: 9:54:00 pm
Posted at: 9:54:00 pm
today was a wonderful day. had the advance course passing out ceremony. i'm best in knowledge again! hehe. safarina too and we're both from tango. im proud of us. jasmine is best cadet. girl power! hehe. all of us were also promoted to sergeant rank today. whee! too bad for those who didnt attend. hehe. unfortunately, we cant wear the ranks in corp level just yet. but i hope we will get a double promotion. my mind's a blur all of a sudden. so, shall end here today..
Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I want to see,
a world untouched,
un-harmed by love,
a world not cursed,
that soars above,
a world of warmth,
not cold as ice,
a world where hearts break once,
not twice.
Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I wish to see,
a moonlit night,
not pouring rain,
tears cried for joy,
not cried for pain,
a peaceful life,
a brand-new slate,
a world where love
can't turn to hate.
Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I hope to see,
a world where pain
cannot occur,
where tears don't make
my vision blur,
where happiness
can't drag me down,
and love won't try
to make me drown.
Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I pray to see,
a place where I
won't need to feel,
where time and life
are not so real,
a place where I
don't need to think,
where into death
I'll never sink.
Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I know can't be,
a world where death
is not a choice,
a place where I
can't hear his voice,
a world where cuts
don't bleed or scar,
where I can watch
life from afar,
a world where I
can hide away,
to die again
another day.
Now Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I need to see
reflect a world
unlike my own
where what is real
is never known.
Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I want to see,
a world untouched,
un-harmed by love,
a world not cursed,
that soars above,
a world of warmth,
not cold as ice,
a world where hearts break once,
not twice.
Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I wish to see,
a moonlit night,
not pouring rain,
tears cried for joy,
not cried for pain,
a peaceful life,
a brand-new slate,
a world where love
can't turn to hate.
Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I hope to see,
a world where pain
cannot occur,
where tears don't make
my vision blur,
where happiness
can't drag me down,
and love won't try
to make me drown.
Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I pray to see,
a place where I
won't need to feel,
where time and life
are not so real,
a place where I
don't need to think,
where into death
I'll never sink.
Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I know can't be,
a world where death
is not a choice,
a place where I
can't hear his voice,
a world where cuts
don't bleed or scar,
where I can watch
life from afar,
a world where I
can hide away,
to die again
another day.
Now Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I need to see
reflect a world
unlike my own
where what is real
is never known.
Posted on: Friday, February 24, 2006
Posted at: 11:11:00 pm
Posted at: 11:11:00 pm
my life came crashing down this week. im confused and lost. im not sure what to do. i just cant decide. my mind's a blur and all i see is total darkness...
Posted on: Friday, February 17, 2006
Posted at: 10:06:00 pm
Posted at: 10:06:00 pm
long time never update. been busy. this week is more than words could ever describe. so, i shall say no more. hehe. but just to sum it all up, vdae was the highlight of my week, probably for the rest of my life. wednesday was cool (travis is kinda cute). thursday was pretty boring. and today, i lost another $27 which means i spent a total of over $60 on gifts and belanja-ing pple this week! wow. that's alot. nevertheless, it was all worth it. i hope so. hmm. i mind's a total blank right now. shall update later if i have time. common test is coming. study hard pple. =)
Posted on: Sunday, February 05, 2006
Posted at: 3:17:00 pm
Posted at: 3:17:00 pm
sometimes this house feels like a prison that i just cant leave behind. so many rules i gotta follow cause you cant let go. i dont wanna hear it and i just cant believe it. all the stupid things you said. but one day, i wont take this anymore. one day, i'll be old enough to do what i want to. and i dont have to run away. and you wont be there to say im not allowed to... one day.
these are lyrics to simple plan's song "one day" which i can relate to right now. i feel so bored at home. since im sort of grounded, i cant go out. how sad. been doing homework all day long. i should be anywhere but here. haish. anyway, i bought the long awaited yellowcard cd yesterday. he'll be soo jealous. haha.
tomorrow's the start of a brand new week and hopefully there will be a turn of events. and things will eventually get better. well, take care guys! :))
these are lyrics to simple plan's song "one day" which i can relate to right now. i feel so bored at home. since im sort of grounded, i cant go out. how sad. been doing homework all day long. i should be anywhere but here. haish. anyway, i bought the long awaited yellowcard cd yesterday. he'll be soo jealous. haha.
tomorrow's the start of a brand new week and hopefully there will be a turn of events. and things will eventually get better. well, take care guys! :))
Posted on: Saturday, February 04, 2006
Posted at: 12:41:00 pm
Posted at: 12:41:00 pm
how do you regain trust from someone after an incident that happened two years ago?
sometimes, i just get so frustated with my parents. it's been two years since they found out about my second ex but they still act as if it's still a huge deal. for instance, my dad still checks my messages. for goodness sake, i'm alomost fifteen! i need my life back! and no one knows sometimes how hard it is to get permission just to go out with friends even. eergh! i hate it. and yesterday, finished training at 6.30pm and my dad was like shouting at me over the phone!
it's hard living with people who don't trust or believe you. they just can't forgive and forget. i wish they could. and then maybe, i would look forward to going home more often. but all these years, i have been patient and i won't stop waiting. one day, i will prove to them that they can't control my life forever.
on a happier note, life outside home ROCKS! can't believe i'm saying this but i actually look forward to school. seriously. i guess being with my friends, im in my comfort zone. and oh ya,
10 more days to valentine's day!!! cant wait!
sometimes, i just get so frustated with my parents. it's been two years since they found out about my second ex but they still act as if it's still a huge deal. for instance, my dad still checks my messages. for goodness sake, i'm alomost fifteen! i need my life back! and no one knows sometimes how hard it is to get permission just to go out with friends even. eergh! i hate it. and yesterday, finished training at 6.30pm and my dad was like shouting at me over the phone!
it's hard living with people who don't trust or believe you. they just can't forgive and forget. i wish they could. and then maybe, i would look forward to going home more often. but all these years, i have been patient and i won't stop waiting. one day, i will prove to them that they can't control my life forever.
on a happier note, life outside home ROCKS! can't believe i'm saying this but i actually look forward to school. seriously. i guess being with my friends, im in my comfort zone. and oh ya,
10 more days to valentine's day!!! cant wait!